December 4, 2010


One Word.
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?

twenty-ten was a strange year for me. good and bad both. but hey, you can't have one without the other - ebb and flow, baby! so, the word of the year is ... patience. i seem to have gained a boatload of it this year.

obviously, having a 'toddler' will MAKE you obtain patience whether you want to or not. i've learned this past year that without means to fully communicate one becomes quite the crank-bot! as you get to know your child, communicating becomes slightly easier but can still be frustrating for both child and parent. with that lack of communication comes meltdowns and screaming both in public and private. i used to cringe when i'd hear a screaming baby out in public and wonder why the parent just let their kid scream like that! i have a whole new respect for parents and don't loose their cool and let their kids 'cry it out' regardless of what others think!

this new found patience has helped in other areas of my life, such as work. work has been a tough one this year and i am finding it a daily struggle to drag myself in there with a smile on my face. getting 'harrassed' about my leave [or lack thereof] the beginning of the year and facing a tougher challenge of a new system the latter. it wouldn't be so bad but half my coworkers don't get the system yet, leaving me with the sole responsibility of 'go-to' girl. hoorah.

patience has also developed within my personal relationships. as stressed as i can be sometimes, i have to understand that the hub gets the same way and he doesn't always have as much patience as i do. sometimes i don't understand why he gets so crazy about certain things but i have to remind myself to be patient with him as he is learning the new found glories of parenting just as i am.
i'm lucky to have obtained patience in regards to some friendships in my life. some i've just had to be patient and let them develop on their own, even if they take years because believe me, they're worth the wait. others i've had to try and maintain patience throughout the friendship. somewhere in my head, i knew what the outcome would be, but i stayed patient in hopes that things would change. when they didn't, i had to keep the patience and not lose my cool because selfishness won the battle.

all of the above have helped me learned to be patient with myself most of all. i am far from perfect and although i expect myself to be the perfect mom, wife, friend, crafter, blogger, chef, driver, worker ... i've had to realize i am perfect in my own way and those in my life love me for just that.

i debated between the word patience and the word fun to describe 2010 because this year has been extremely FUN. watching kullen grow and playing with him has been a blast. having awesome friendships and an awesome husband has been FUN. but i really think without patience, all those things wouldn't have been AS fun, if it makes any sense! ;] so patience was the perfect word for me this year.

the word i hope describes twenty-eleven is change. i hope to change jobs, first and foremost. i think that alone will help with other things in my life! i would also like to sell my house and buy something bigger that suites us better. and if not sell and purchase something else, at least have this house on the market. i'd also like to have another baby. i'd like change my spending habits and become a little more frugal. i wouldn't mind a new vehicle either ;)
so, here's to 2011 :D

1 comment:

Clarissa's Cottage Arts said...

You are my perfectly great oldest granddaughter. I might add a wonderful mommie. Kullen is so blessed. I have seen you mature so much over this year, and it's wonderful to see a little bit of myself in you.